Everyone has that one candle that they've never burned. It's ok to admit it- I know because I have them all over the place. This one is from Mom from 3 years ago, it smells great, I want to save it forever. This one is a pretty color and I may not find it again anywhere- so I'm saving it. This one over here has a really good smell that is sold out, I'm saving it. I started really thinking about all of the things I'm saving. Saving for what? After I had my accident last year, I started thinking about the house, and the way I left it. Unburned candles, an unopened bottle of wine, a few shirts that I want to wear someday but haven't found the right occasion. I don't care what anyone thinks of that, but I care. What am I doing? What am I waiting for? You never know when your number is up. I guess the point of this blog is some sort of written affirmation that I plan on living. Although last year ended a little rough, this is a new beginning. A rebirth of sorts. I'm letting go of the bad of 2015 and starting fresh.
After the accident, I had some pretty bad internal injuries that needed to be urgently addressed; it was a miracle I was able to work like this and it wasn't even until this month I actually started feeling like myself again. You have no idea how important your health and wellbeing are until you temporarily lose them. Your health is everything. EVERYTHING. Don't ever look at someone and think that just because they look fine on the outside, that the inside matches. I'm proud to say that I have one more month of medication and I'll officially be 100%. I never let my injuries affect my job. Six days after the accident, I was shooting another wedding, then another.
I'm going to say this: I'm burning every candle in my house. Yes, even the beautiful candle picture above from my mom. It smells amazing, and I'm enjoying it. I went on a photoshoot this week, and wore a bright red blouse that I love. I picked it out because it was daring, beautiful, the material felt good, it made me feel alive in the dressing room- but I've never had the guts to wear it anywhere. Why? I don't know- so much of my job is 'blending in.' This week I put that blouse on and felt good about it. 2016 is going to be different- I'm going to live more this year than I did last year. I'm making every moment count.
I have some personal goals this year with my photography as well- and I can't wait to put them into action. I have implemented new software this year that is really going to streamline my studio- quotes, invoices, workflows, contracts, EVERYTHING is going to be online. So far the response from clients has been wonderful. The studio has really jumped ahead by leaps and bounds- not only has it made the first week of the new year so much easier, but it will really keep everything organized and in one spot- not only for me, but for clients as well. You will be able to access your invoices and contracts all online- so if you happen to lose anything- there will always be a copy online. All existing clients should have received an email last week introducing the new system.
So my friends, don't be afraid to live this year. Don't be afraid to burn that special candle, and bask in the ambiance. Don't be afraid to let your hair down and enjoy life!
See you on the next shoot!